Hi K. I’m here for today’s download. I have about 15 minutes before I have to prepare for group. I already went to the gym with Viva, and she made us breakfast, and I’ve seen a client and written my morning pages and meditated. I now open into anything that is for me today.
You are filled with fear.
That is true. This enterprise is scary to me. I still haven’t been able to de-shackle myself from the idea that I have to be entertaining for others’ enjoyment. I am filled with anxiety that what I am doing is “boring” or disappointing to people somehow. Any thoughts for me on this?
Put yourself into the energy of solution, of answer—feel your energy rise to a higher frequency of knowing. When there are corporeal expectations in your mind, it is easy to generate fear or anxiety. This is completely normal. As you know conceptually, and are now seeing in absolute clarity, your ebbing of and flowing of fear influences the clarity of our message—or better said, influences your access to the clear transmission of what we are communicating to you energetically. As you let go, as you trust, not just us in this moment, not just in yourself, but the Universe as a whole—as you release these fears and move into a place of believing, a place of total observation of the sacredness of “now”—wherein the only important factors are your corporeal self and the relationship you have with us, with K, with this entity that is you and courses through you and is the intelligence you have understood to exist for most of your life (in the Mormon sense of the concept of “intelligences”), you begin to feel more clarity, more peace.
You can feel that peace now as you continue to let go, and to release your anxieties. There is nothing to fear here. You are simply dumping words into a repository. The repository is one of many available to you and you are not to give it more significance than is due. Focus. Focus on this. On this moment. Allow your mind to be absorbed into how it feels to be in correspondence with us. Allow yourself to let go of anything else. You practice this often through meditation—it is the same principle. Simply focus on us, on these words coming through your mind and to your fingers as you focus on the breath you breathe. Allow your focus to contain only this, only the words and the feeling of joy, of resplendence, of peace., of goodness you feel as you engage in this activity.
That good feeling you are feeling is real, it is you, it is right, it is enough. Nothing else matters besides this sensation, for it is the sensation of oneness with your inner entity—the you that is connected to the creative energy of this time and space. Don’t focus on words so much, just allow what emerges to emerge, even if you fear that it will sound similar to other voices, even if your easiest mode to language certain things is to use th phrases others have used as they have connected to us in similar ways. The truth of your words—the vibrancy of this communiqué—will emerge in the feeling that you have as you write them, as well as the feeling generated as others read them, should they choose to.
Less attention needs be paid to issues of grammar and syntax. This is less writing than it is dictation. In other moments, you write in ways that are more connected to your own mind, your own way of thinking, and those things are still blessed with the imprimatur of our source-based energy, and have elements thereof, but this type of interaction is pure in its expression of OTHERNESS, of the thoughts of a collective of entities—or perhaps one single entity of split or multifaceted awareness—that communicates through you.
Think of a diamond, think of its facets, as well as its translucence, and the way that light filtering through it refracts in many directions and many ways, causing the sensation of a sparkle. You are translating a sparkle. You are allowing us to stream the thought essence of a sparkle into your mind and into thought objects of language that can be interpreted by both your mind as through it it passes, as well as by the minds of anyone who encounters it. You are not to concern yourself with that part of the equation for it has no pertinence to you, really. It is connected to a relationship that we have with other human beings—your concern is only your own relationship to us, which is another way, truly, of saying your own relationship to yourself, for we are you and you are us, in the sense that all things are one. Again, the diamond. The diamond of creation that is this universe is brilliant in its multifaceted refraction of the light of consciousness over space and time.
We thank you for giving attention to parts of this faceted goodness that would otherwise be not expressed, or not properly expressed. Doing so refines your connection to us, and allows us to attract others into more salient relationship with us (or with themselves) than otherwise possible. For this you are appreciated.
Do I have to share this?
No. If you don’t want to share this you don’t have to. But there is no reason not to. There is no goal you are trying to achieve. There is no pattern you need to maintain in order for this project you have undertaken to be “good.” You may do what feels correct the next time you engage. The resistance and fear you feel is not bad—you can ascend above it in time. It is natural, understandable, totally normal. It helps you know what you want. It helps you know what you want this experience to be, and this experience can be exactly what you want it to be, for that is the way of the human mind in correspondence with this creative energy with which you now converse. Anything you desire and intend is yours as you realize your preference, and align with the realization of that preference. Higher frequencies always.
Thank you, K, for this conversation. I’m understanding more and more.
Love,
Josh